Wait

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We all have waited, waited for something and someone. When we wait, we are either ordered to stay put or do something. When we are asked to watch and wait, what happens? We tend to get impatient, frustrated, and angry. Several questions run through our beautiful minds: “What happens next?” “When will it happen” “Is it even worth waiting for?” These phrases fill our minds, and we lose hope. We lose sight of the bigger things God has in store for us. We start to settle and force situations that are not part of His plan, causing a delay to our destination.

Then an offer comes. Someone comes. Something comes. And we are thrilled because finally they have arrived. However, they are part of the trial. They are part of God’s challenge for you, and they are not where you are meant to stay. Our hearts are excited because we made ourselves believe that “this is it”, but they are merely a trial. So, when we are back to waiting, we question God’s plans, making us believe that maybe we have to do something or maybe we are not doing enough. However, no matter how hard we try, we still end up waiting.

Waiting for a response, that flicker of hope that lets us know that our wait will soon be over. Make believe signals we craft in our minds giving us something to hold on to, while we are walking into uncertainty. The only thing we are definite about is the fact that something or someone is worth the wait, and even that is not enough to satisfy our thirst for answers. We want to examine the specifics, the who, what, where, when, why, how…

You see waiting is an oxymoron. We wait and we feel constant, however, what is going on in our minds is really a roller coaster. For time it is constant, linear ticking of clock, but for our impatient minds and hearts we are on a ride of hope, fear, promise, and despair. The truth of the matter is in fact: you are not just simply waiting; your faith and patience are being polished. You are being prepared for the next big thing.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

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Middle

Middle
Is where I am
I am the in progress
The processing
My location is in between
I am not the sun
Nor the rain
Just the shade
Not quite
Nor enough
But getting there
I had begun my journey
But have not arrived
Not in a hurry
Taking my time
Not freezing
Nor burning
Just warm
Filled with potentials
To be and become
Riding along
Passing through
Waiting
To get to you

Writer’s Block

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Have you ever just felt the urge to write something, but do not quite know what to write about? You want to write something, to just express everything, but just don’t quite know where or how to start…

So all you have are beginnings. This potential to become a prose, but they never seem to reach to a completion.. They just stay backspaced, and all you have is nothing.

I have been experiencing this for quite some time now. I may be experiencing the “writer’s block” syndrome. I mean really it is of no big deal, because it is not like many of you actually read my blog or if any even…

So really there is no pressure from you readers, however, the battle of being unable to produce a written prose and the urge to craft one is becoming a problem. Many times I want to produce a written blog, but fail to do so.

Whatever this is, I am battling it with my readings. I have been reading a lot, and I just took a break for a week now because I figured I have to change this repeated tasks I am living. However, I just cannot wait to read my next novel.

Perhaps, reading has become a hobby or a habit, while my writing abilities has deteriorated… I guess I just need balance.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off<3

Staying Sane: EMOTIONS

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What makes you happy? Many of us may say music. Music definitely affects our mood immensely. To others, happiness comes from nature. The sun shining, trees swaying, rain dropping.. Many people feel happiness with the positive energy they received from the people around them. The flow of optimism around the world they surround themselves gives them this lively energy. Others find happiness in peace. Quiet and contentment brings joy into their life. We all have our own happiness.

However, do you believe sadness is necessary for us to appreciate our happiness? That maybe if joy is in continuum, we may feel bored of it, or we may not even like its presence… Meaning we may try to tear ourselves up, bringing out our insecurities and imperfections, just to feel sane.

Being happy all day every day may make us feel robotic, where the only emotions we can show to the world are smiles and laughters. We forget that there are other emotions out there that makes the world go round. Emotions that defines us as human beings.

So if you have been sad, angry, poker faced for so long now, do not worry. You need to feel those to appreciate happiness in the future. These emotions also enables us to soak in this important lesson in life called perseverance.

Perseverance are not only for the sad ones. They are also for the people who are agitated, waiting, or even the people who are just riding along with life… These emotions enables us to feel and learn in life. Happiness, sadness, anger, neutrality, and mixed emotions keeps us sane, for our heart feels and our minds process…

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off

Got Boredom? Read Complexities

Since I started reading complex fiction, it has now come to my attention that my mind is rather fascinated by stories including histories, time travels, real-life underlying problems as opposed to my usual high school life reads.

I guess if I let myself read something out of my usual, progressing my mind with every book, going back to the “easies” are rather boring. They become uninteresting, as I endlessly flip through virtual pages waiting for the story to end.

It may have something to do with my age though… I am almost 21 and obviously my interests are growing too. Dramas are always welcome, but I guess the settings and the underlying situations are the most significant factors here.

My mind is uninterested into high school chatters, gossips, and puppy loves. Well.., maybe puppy loves I supposed are only interesting when there is an immense dilemma in action. A war maybe… A reincarnation… Time Travels? Mind Puzzling Crimes? Illnesses focusing on living life to the fullest..

However, those silly loves are only but for a moment on those stories. Those stories are usually engrossed with such time and emotion that if love is focused, it is the pure and rich kind. The love where you know is worth keeping.

So to my best of abilities, I am going to diligently find books in the future, that is approved by my progression. Reading on the “easies” may be a break, from the rich complexities of the intelligent writers, but they do not seem to fascinate me (not anymore). They are just I guess nothing but “breaks” nowadays.

– jasminedelacerna

Beauty and Curse from the Heavens

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We wonder up above the sky, yelling “what kind of blue are you?” Staring beyond the universe questioning how stars could shine so bright. Variations of yellow and oranges we come to label as the sunrise and sunsets, and the sprinkles from the heavyhearted clouds telling us that they too need release. The polychromatic rainbow curve just above the clouds and its reflection bouncing back to the earth, scientists has come to label as prisms. These are all the beauty of the universe. Beauty nature has given us since the world began.

However, these beautiful creatures above our heads could also be a beautiful disaster. Disasters so beautiful, even death itself are approached by aimless souls. This motherly nature turns her back to us, and we are swept by calamities. We are blindsided by its beauty, or maybe… just maybe… we did the heavens wrong or mother nature in this case. So we are doomed for destruction. The once beautiful sunshine is now covered up with thick dark clouds as it precipitates above us. Lightning and thunder flashes and rumbles, shaking our faiths as we cry for dear help.

The fascination on how such beauty can become horrid is absolutely existent. We stare at the innocent clouds one day and we question its very purpose asking, “Are you here to hold up the sky or are you just waiting for everything to explode from your bottled up fluff?”

– jasminedelacerna ❤

Reminiscing while Waiting

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            Ever felt like your past has so much more lessons to teach you? That chapter of your life may have ended, but your mind keeps rehearsing certain moments, what you could have done differently, if only you knew what was coming… Those questions always circling around your head, followed by the feeling of regret.

            Maybe it has been months, years, or decades, but your mind has not moved on from the past yet. It keeps dragging you back to the memories you chose to forget. They keep taking you back to a time where love was present, and you compare it to now. You feel so stagnant.

            Then you question yourself and God, when will the “next big thing” arrive? Not necessarily a new love, maybe something that will momentarily take your mind off from your history. Moments that will finally keep you moving and looking forward.

            Waiting periods may even pay off in the long run. I guess it allows us to appreciate and cherish the people, things, and events that are yet to come. Human beings tend to take for granted each other and each blessing placed in our lives.

            So for now, we are stuck with waiting. Maybe it is not so bad after all. If you ask me, as I wait, I enjoy myself with things like reading. Reading makes me live in different lives. I live the life of the main character/narrator, giving me some fictional experience, and those are more than enough for me.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤