Precious Present

There are days when I feel happy and I just do not want it to end. Days when I could just savor this moment for it to last forever. These days are just like today, yesterday, and since Christmas Day. My special one has brought color and joy into my life and it is just right to savor it for however long I want to, wherever and whenever. These are moments when I want to remember when I am down in the future, just in case, to give me a little pick me up, to tell me to not give up because these days are up ahead.

As you can tell by now, I am happy. Plain and simple. Yep, that’s right. Not the elaborate “overjoyed” kind of way but the good ole’ “joy”, and yep you guessed it right. It is because of this one person. I used to think happiness depending on a person is ridiculous and do not get be wrong, it still is sometimes, however, that person also has the ability to add color into your life. Love, people may say… infatuation to the others, who wants to tone it down a little bit. However, the important part of it is happiness.

Since we are now talking about importance, I think it is just write to talk about its root. Why am I happy? Who is responsible for this burst of emotion? Is it really just this one guy? Or is it this man watching over us, making sure the guy I am happy with and about are experiencing joy instead of just plain happiness. See, I believe “joy” is a little bit deeper than smiles, laughter, euphoria, etc. I believe it comes from within and not only that, I believe it is given.

You may ask, “given… by who?” In my own spiritual understanding, I am absolutely positive it is granted by our Lord Jesus Christ. In Psalms 16:11 it is written, “You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.” This is the root of my joy, Jesus Christ. He is the reason why I sing His praise & worship when I am taking a shower, doing my makeup, doing my chores at work. He loves me deeply and he expresses it to me through this joy.

All I can say is thank you Jesus Christ. Before this year ends, I encourage you to reflect on what He has done in your life, how much he loves you, how he died and rose again to save you from your sins, and who He is in your everyday life. He is always there for you and for me, it is just a matter of us constantly reminding ourselves to not worry because He has gifted us joy, so we must live and act upon this precious present He has given.

You Can Do Anything: Just Believe

Hey Bloggers!

“You Can Do Anything You Set Your Mind to Do” This is a saying I believe is true. You will make time for it, especially when you start rejecting any excuse. When you have the enough faith and motivation, you can do anything. The impossible begins to be accomplished, and you will see changes in your life.

At first, it may seem difficult because it is just the beginning. However, when you have warmed up to life’s demands and pace, you are able to finish the race. We all have tasks waiting to be touched, we all have those visible and invisible piles of things to do, and it may seem impossible to complete them… however, if you just believe that you are going to finish where you left off, you will.

You will persevere through the rough times, and finish what you started. We all have experienced life’s overwhelming desires, and when we give up it is not ‘life’ we are giving up on, nor its challenges… we are simply giving up on ourselves, on our God-given abilities to succeed.

God will never give you anything you cannot handle. You are more than equipped to fight the challenges life throws at you. You have a God who is bigger than anything and anyone in this world and He is with you, always. So the next time you feel like life has knocked you over, remember it has not. It feels like it, but you are still standing so do not give up, because the end is closer than you think.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

Looming Stranger

Knock!
Knock!
Knock!
“Let me in!”
Peep

I can’t
I can’t touch the cold hard knob
Refuse to unhook the latch
Just close your eyes
It will go away

Breathe
In and Out

Bang!
Bang!
Bang!
“Open the door!”

Leap
I won’t
I won’t leap to the mountains
Refuse to take a step

Block the noise
Clear your mind
Relax
An illusion
That is all
Voices of your imagination

Steady your breath
One
Two
Three

“I’m coming back!”
Boom!

Compose yourself
It is over
Gone
For now

Remnants Resurface

I do not want to know
But somehow
Time
Has its way
Through accidental glimpses

Are they accidents?
Are accidents even real?
I try
To cover my eyes
Hide my mind

Still
Remnants of you resurface

Your presence
Lingers
As they creep up
Silently
Too late to stop

Making its way carelessly
Stepping through cracks
Visiting facts
Replaying such acts

Will I ever get away?
From your shadows of relay
and
Accidental display

Mediocre Be Bold

 

Mediocrity
Tell me
How I can write away with thee
Ordinarily
Blandly
Simply
Tell Me
How I can write extraordinarily

Scribbles
Doodles
Loopholes
Will I hit my goals
Touch souls

Teach
Reach
Preach
Will hearts be stitched

Attentions lured
Brokenness cured
Intentions pured
Fill a void

Whose heart will I hold?
Mind forever fold
Silence told

 

Mediocre be bold

 

Wait

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We all have waited, waited for something and someone. When we wait, we are either ordered to stay put or do something. When we are asked to watch and wait, what happens? We tend to get impatient, frustrated, and angry. Several questions run through our beautiful minds: “What happens next?” “When will it happen” “Is it even worth waiting for?” These phrases fill our minds, and we lose hope. We lose sight of the bigger things God has in store for us. We start to settle and force situations that are not part of His plan, causing a delay to our destination.

Then an offer comes. Someone comes. Something comes. And we are thrilled because finally they have arrived. However, they are part of the trial. They are part of God’s challenge for you, and they are not where you are meant to stay. Our hearts are excited because we made ourselves believe that “this is it”, but they are merely a trial. So, when we are back to waiting, we question God’s plans, making us believe that maybe we have to do something or maybe we are not doing enough. However, no matter how hard we try, we still end up waiting.

Waiting for a response, that flicker of hope that lets us know that our wait will soon be over. Make believe signals we craft in our minds giving us something to hold on to, while we are walking into uncertainty. The only thing we are definite about is the fact that something or someone is worth the wait, and even that is not enough to satisfy our thirst for answers. We want to examine the specifics, the who, what, where, when, why, how…

You see waiting is an oxymoron. We wait and we feel constant, however, what is going on in our minds is really a roller coaster. For time it is constant, linear ticking of clock, but for our impatient minds and hearts we are on a ride of hope, fear, promise, and despair. The truth of the matter is in fact: you are not just simply waiting; your faith and patience are being polished. You are being prepared for the next big thing.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

Whisper

Whisper
Truth
Into my mind
Thoughts
Never left my side

Whisper
Lies
Into my soul
Facts
Never made me whole

Whisper
Love
Into my heart
Emotions
Never took my part

Whisper
Beauty
Into my body
Imperfections
Never kept me steady

Writer’s Block

Hey wordpressers,

Have you ever just felt the urge to write something, but do not quite know what to write about? You want to write something, to just express everything, but just don’t quite know where or how to start…

So all you have are beginnings. This potential to become a prose, but they never seem to reach to a completion.. They just stay backspaced, and all you have is nothing.

I have been experiencing this for quite some time now. I may be experiencing the “writer’s block” syndrome. I mean really it is of no big deal, because it is not like many of you actually read my blog or if any even…

So really there is no pressure from you readers, however, the battle of being unable to produce a written prose and the urge to craft one is becoming a problem. Many times I want to produce a written blog, but fail to do so.

Whatever this is, I am battling it with my readings. I have been reading a lot, and I just took a break for a week now because I figured I have to change this repeated tasks I am living. However, I just cannot wait to read my next novel.

Perhaps, reading has become a hobby or a habit, while my writing abilities has deteriorated… I guess I just need balance.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off<3

Staying Sane: EMOTIONS

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What makes you happy? Many of us may say music. Music definitely affects our mood immensely. To others, happiness comes from nature. The sun shining, trees swaying, rain dropping.. Many people feel happiness with the positive energy they received from the people around them. The flow of optimism around the world they surround themselves gives them this lively energy. Others find happiness in peace. Quiet and contentment brings joy into their life. We all have our own happiness.

However, do you believe sadness is necessary for us to appreciate our happiness? That maybe if joy is in continuum, we may feel bored of it, or we may not even like its presence… Meaning we may try to tear ourselves up, bringing out our insecurities and imperfections, just to feel sane.

Being happy all day every day may make us feel robotic, where the only emotions we can show to the world are smiles and laughters. We forget that there are other emotions out there that makes the world go round. Emotions that defines us as human beings.

So if you have been sad, angry, poker faced for so long now, do not worry. You need to feel those to appreciate happiness in the future. These emotions also enables us to soak in this important lesson in life called perseverance.

Perseverance are not only for the sad ones. They are also for the people who are agitated, waiting, or even the people who are just riding along with life… These emotions enables us to feel and learn in life. Happiness, sadness, anger, neutrality, and mixed emotions keeps us sane, for our heart feels and our minds process…

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off

When You Left…

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            Couple of years ago, leaving was mutual. I remembered being on the couch with my past and we decided that it was time to move on. Looking at the clock ticked away, I watched the hand move. It was not even 7 yet. However, we knew it was time to say goodbye. The very thing I remembered, in which I actually wrote a poem about few years later, was sitting on the couch with my past. Then, he stood up, got his backpack, ready to leave. I stood up and hugged him. The very last one I can get from him, and then I let go.

Watched him descend from the stair steps. I remembered holding on to myself that time. I sobbed and cried alone on the couch. It was my first heartbreak. My first official end of a relationship. Listening to him put on his shoes ready to leave my house; it was like the scratching of nails on a chalkboard. It was dreadful.

On what was on my mind during the event, I do not remember. It was like I did not think of anything but focused on my heartbreak, and the end of my relationship. It was very difficult.

The pros of leaving was letting go of an unhealthy relationship. Breaking free of the “clinginess” I brought myself into. Lastly, it made me closer to God and my family. The cons… well the cons were the flashbacks I am dealing with currently.

Even now three years later, my mind still remembers and contemplates. This is something I am going to admit and only to you my readers, maybe… just maybe… I am not over him. However, I have moved on. I have accepted that… that was the end of the relationship. But every day he is on my mind, and sometimes he has cameo appearances in my dreams.

He left my life, but my mind has clung to him. No matter how hard I try to push those memories aside and erase him from my daily thoughts, he still shows up, and I do not know when this will stop. I tried. I still am trying…

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

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