Remnants Resurface

I do not want to know
But somehow
Time
Has its way
Through accidental glimpses

Are they accidents?
Are accidents even real?
I try
To cover my eyes
Hide my mind

Still
Remnants of you resurface

Your presence
Lingers
As they creep up
Silently
Too late to stop

Making its way carelessly
Stepping through cracks
Visiting facts
Replaying such acts

Will I ever get away?
From your shadows of relay
and
Accidental display

“There’s a part of you that stayed with me someone else gets to know”

Stick – Ingrid Michaelson

This song says it all.

Staying Sane: EMOTIONS

Hey wordpressers,

What makes you happy? Many of us may say music. Music definitely affects our mood immensely. To others, happiness comes from nature. The sun shining, trees swaying, rain dropping.. Many people feel happiness with the positive energy they received from the people around them. The flow of optimism around the world they surround themselves gives them this lively energy. Others find happiness in peace. Quiet and contentment brings joy into their life. We all have our own happiness.

However, do you believe sadness is necessary for us to appreciate our happiness? That maybe if joy is in continuum, we may feel bored of it, or we may not even like its presence… Meaning we may try to tear ourselves up, bringing out our insecurities and imperfections, just to feel sane.

Being happy all day every day may make us feel robotic, where the only emotions we can show to the world are smiles and laughters. We forget that there are other emotions out there that makes the world go round. Emotions that defines us as human beings.

So if you have been sad, angry, poker faced for so long now, do not worry. You need to feel those to appreciate happiness in the future. These emotions also enables us to soak in this important lesson in life called perseverance.

Perseverance are not only for the sad ones. They are also for the people who are agitated, waiting, or even the people who are just riding along with life… These emotions enables us to feel and learn in life. Happiness, sadness, anger, neutrality, and mixed emotions keeps us sane, for our heart feels and our minds process…

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off

When You Left…

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            Couple of years ago, leaving was mutual. I remembered being on the couch with my past and we decided that it was time to move on. Looking at the clock ticked away, I watched the hand move. It was not even 7 yet. However, we knew it was time to say goodbye. The very thing I remembered, in which I actually wrote a poem about few years later, was sitting on the couch with my past. Then, he stood up, got his backpack, ready to leave. I stood up and hugged him. The very last one I can get from him, and then I let go.

Watched him descend from the stair steps. I remembered holding on to myself that time. I sobbed and cried alone on the couch. It was my first heartbreak. My first official end of a relationship. Listening to him put on his shoes ready to leave my house; it was like the scratching of nails on a chalkboard. It was dreadful.

On what was on my mind during the event, I do not remember. It was like I did not think of anything but focused on my heartbreak, and the end of my relationship. It was very difficult.

The pros of leaving was letting go of an unhealthy relationship. Breaking free of the “clinginess” I brought myself into. Lastly, it made me closer to God and my family. The cons… well the cons were the flashbacks I am dealing with currently.

Even now three years later, my mind still remembers and contemplates. This is something I am going to admit and only to you my readers, maybe… just maybe… I am not over him. However, I have moved on. I have accepted that… that was the end of the relationship. But every day he is on my mind, and sometimes he has cameo appearances in my dreams.

He left my life, but my mind has clung to him. No matter how hard I try to push those memories aside and erase him from my daily thoughts, he still shows up, and I do not know when this will stop. I tried. I still am trying…

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

To learn more about photographs, poetry, and proses about leaving: click here

Savory Moments

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Savoring moments are important. It enables us to cherish the world. People savor moments through closing their eyes and memorizing how they feel when that moment comes. Photographers capture them through their cameras. Writers scribble in their pads to describe how one moment changed their lives.

Savory is vital to our living here on earth. This is the time where we stop to cherish what we have in that certain moment. Some of us forget this part of life, leading to regrets and despair in the future. We are trapped to life’s demands with our busy schedules that special moments have become scarce in our living.

Savor that moment: moments where you feel happy and complete, because it is temporary. These moments are the very same moments turned into memories in the future. Memories stored in our minds, reminding the potential of life to be a memory and a prospective.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

Reminiscing while Waiting

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            Ever felt like your past has so much more lessons to teach you? That chapter of your life may have ended, but your mind keeps rehearsing certain moments, what you could have done differently, if only you knew what was coming… Those questions always circling around your head, followed by the feeling of regret.

            Maybe it has been months, years, or decades, but your mind has not moved on from the past yet. It keeps dragging you back to the memories you chose to forget. They keep taking you back to a time where love was present, and you compare it to now. You feel so stagnant.

            Then you question yourself and God, when will the “next big thing” arrive? Not necessarily a new love, maybe something that will momentarily take your mind off from your history. Moments that will finally keep you moving and looking forward.

            Waiting periods may even pay off in the long run. I guess it allows us to appreciate and cherish the people, things, and events that are yet to come. Human beings tend to take for granted each other and each blessing placed in our lives.

            So for now, we are stuck with waiting. Maybe it is not so bad after all. If you ask me, as I wait, I enjoy myself with things like reading. Reading makes me live in different lives. I live the life of the main character/narrator, giving me some fictional experience, and those are more than enough for me.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

Progression and Growth

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            We all mature at some point. Growing is the inevitable part of life. Children acts like adults, while adults want to look younger. I guess that is the irony of youth and growth. I am 20 now, not a teenager anymore, however not quite an adult. So in short I am in the midst of confusion. Hehe! No in all seriousness, I am going through the “in the middle”, perhaps some people call it progression.

            As I mature, I observe lots of introspection going through my mind and emotions. I evaluate how I feel or sometimes, evaluation just goes naturally that I combine it with imaginations. They very much contraindicate with each other. Introspection enables me to examine my realities and my histories, while my imagination lets me create scenarios to make up for my inadequacies or a lack of thrill in my life.

           I know I sound very ungrateful. Life is full of suspense: the making or becoming to be better or for complete restoration. I guess we are all carved every single day, to be prepared for certain moments. However, I believe I am carved in order to be presented, and then broken down again once it is over.

           However, I am doing the best I can to cherish life, because I am only 20 once. Soon, I am older and I want to look back and think about these moments where youth is still in the air. Hopefully, I will make more memories that are unlike any other.

            Stagnation is what I dread, but I know every day I am progressing. I believe nobody ever stays the same. We all experience different things in life and we may not notice them as we are moving along, but when we look back in the future, these little things are going to become the most precious memories. So enjoy life and make memories.

This is Jasmine De La Cerna, Signing Off ❤