He Believes He Never Leaves

God says,
“I believe in you”
It whispers into my soul
Soul full of doubt
His voice I cannot live without

Jesus says,
“I will not leave you”
It speaks into my heart
Heart full of hurt
His presence I want to be part

He believes
For He knows who I am
He never leaves
For He understands
He whispers
For He wants silence
He speaks
For He loves to be heard

My soul
Weak
My heart
Sick
His touch
Meek

He Never Leaves

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Wait

Hey Bloggers!

We all have waited, waited for something and someone. When we wait, we are either ordered to stay put or do something. When we are asked to watch and wait, what happens? We tend to get impatient, frustrated, and angry. Several questions run through our beautiful minds: “What happens next?” “When will it happen” “Is it even worth waiting for?” These phrases fill our minds, and we lose hope. We lose sight of the bigger things God has in store for us. We start to settle and force situations that are not part of His plan, causing a delay to our destination.

Then an offer comes. Someone comes. Something comes. And we are thrilled because finally they have arrived. However, they are part of the trial. They are part of God’s challenge for you, and they are not where you are meant to stay. Our hearts are excited because we made ourselves believe that “this is it”, but they are merely a trial. So, when we are back to waiting, we question God’s plans, making us believe that maybe we have to do something or maybe we are not doing enough. However, no matter how hard we try, we still end up waiting.

Waiting for a response, that flicker of hope that lets us know that our wait will soon be over. Make believe signals we craft in our minds giving us something to hold on to, while we are walking into uncertainty. The only thing we are definite about is the fact that something or someone is worth the wait, and even that is not enough to satisfy our thirst for answers. We want to examine the specifics, the who, what, where, when, why, how…

You see waiting is an oxymoron. We wait and we feel constant, however, what is going on in our minds is really a roller coaster. For time it is constant, linear ticking of clock, but for our impatient minds and hearts we are on a ride of hope, fear, promise, and despair. The truth of the matter is in fact: you are not just simply waiting; your faith and patience are being polished. You are being prepared for the next big thing.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

When You Left…

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            Couple of years ago, leaving was mutual. I remembered being on the couch with my past and we decided that it was time to move on. Looking at the clock ticked away, I watched the hand move. It was not even 7 yet. However, we knew it was time to say goodbye. The very thing I remembered, in which I actually wrote a poem about few years later, was sitting on the couch with my past. Then, he stood up, got his backpack, ready to leave. I stood up and hugged him. The very last one I can get from him, and then I let go.

Watched him descend from the stair steps. I remembered holding on to myself that time. I sobbed and cried alone on the couch. It was my first heartbreak. My first official end of a relationship. Listening to him put on his shoes ready to leave my house; it was like the scratching of nails on a chalkboard. It was dreadful.

On what was on my mind during the event, I do not remember. It was like I did not think of anything but focused on my heartbreak, and the end of my relationship. It was very difficult.

The pros of leaving was letting go of an unhealthy relationship. Breaking free of the “clinginess” I brought myself into. Lastly, it made me closer to God and my family. The cons… well the cons were the flashbacks I am dealing with currently.

Even now three years later, my mind still remembers and contemplates. This is something I am going to admit and only to you my readers, maybe… just maybe… I am not over him. However, I have moved on. I have accepted that… that was the end of the relationship. But every day he is on my mind, and sometimes he has cameo appearances in my dreams.

He left my life, but my mind has clung to him. No matter how hard I try to push those memories aside and erase him from my daily thoughts, he still shows up, and I do not know when this will stop. I tried. I still am trying…

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤

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Writers: A Gift from the Heavens

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I just finished reading “The Book Thief”. I read it for exactly a week, and just finished it a few minutes ago. I have not watched the movie yet, but I am planning on watching it this week, or perhaps later tonight.

My plan is to start on a new book again. So far this year, I completed two books. I loved books, and am glad I share that feeling with other fellow readers. I cannot forget once, before I was into reading, that I put the phrases, “I’d rather sleep than read”, when asked about my favorite books on my Facebook page. However, now… it seems quite the opposite. I like to read, and would even skipped nap times just to read.

To the authors and writers out there, thank you. Thank You for giving me new experiences, for taking me back and/or forward in time, with your published documents. Writers are a gift from the heavens. The readers are blessed to have your God-given talent come into our lives. Once again, thank you writers and authors.

This is jasmindelacerna, signing off ❤

Reminiscing while Waiting

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            Ever felt like your past has so much more lessons to teach you? That chapter of your life may have ended, but your mind keeps rehearsing certain moments, what you could have done differently, if only you knew what was coming… Those questions always circling around your head, followed by the feeling of regret.

            Maybe it has been months, years, or decades, but your mind has not moved on from the past yet. It keeps dragging you back to the memories you chose to forget. They keep taking you back to a time where love was present, and you compare it to now. You feel so stagnant.

            Then you question yourself and God, when will the “next big thing” arrive? Not necessarily a new love, maybe something that will momentarily take your mind off from your history. Moments that will finally keep you moving and looking forward.

            Waiting periods may even pay off in the long run. I guess it allows us to appreciate and cherish the people, things, and events that are yet to come. Human beings tend to take for granted each other and each blessing placed in our lives.

            So for now, we are stuck with waiting. Maybe it is not so bad after all. If you ask me, as I wait, I enjoy myself with things like reading. Reading makes me live in different lives. I live the life of the main character/narrator, giving me some fictional experience, and those are more than enough for me.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤