Maze Doors Vision

Hey Bloggers,

I was sitting in bed at the crack of dawn this early morning. I was praying and asking God about His will for me, while at the same time becoming who I want to be personally. As I was praying, I felt like I was going around in circles on my prayers so I asked the Holy Spirit to teach me how to pray.

It only took a split second for Him to impress in my heart the things I wanted compared to the things He wanted for me. As I was praying, I remembered my ambition a long time ago and even now (the career goal I want), which is to help contribute to the fight against cancer.

So, I focused on that, I talked to Him about wanting to be able to help cure cancer and/or contribute to help irradicate children’s cancer. As I was praying, I had this vision of standing in front of a closed door and in my hand was a key. An enormous key. This key will turn the knob of the door in front of me and will open its journey. As I stand in front of the door with the key in my hand, I knew that it means that once I open the door it means that I will enter into this career that I just got hired last Friday.

Although I had the key in hand, I still felt hesitant about going in. My heart felt that if I walk through that door, that means I may never enter the door to my left. I looked over to my left and I saw another door. This door was closed and on the ground are multiple sets of keys. These keys were used before, however, they are not the right ones so they were not able to open the locked door. I knew that those multiples sets of keys meant that those are the methods and job applications I used to open the door that I wanted, but could not get access to it.

As I stared down at the multiple keys on the ground to my left and I looked down at the key in my hand, I broke down. The door in front of me is waiting and ready to be opened, and all I have to do is use the key in my hand to turn the knob and unlock all the possibilities it can offer. However, I am too afraid that when I choose that method, I may never get to experience and fulfill my own personal dream.

This realization broke me down. I do not remember feeling any emotional buildup, but when I saw the big key in my hand and the other small failed keys on the ground I felt like my battle was over. Obviously, I should just use that big key in my hand to open the door in front of me, however, I just could not bring myself to it. Maybe I could, but my will refuse to let me do so. While I was having this emotional turmoil, my mind just kept repeating “How bad do you want it? How bad do you want it?”

I got out of my bed and went to the bathroom to cry it all out. I grabbed some kleenex and wiped those tears away. When I sat back in my bed, I cleared my head. I spent a few minutes to not think about anything. Then, when I felt like I was ready to speak to God again I asked Him to “change my heart”. I once again asked the Holy Spirit to teach me how to pray. So he directed me once again. My new prayers are now that “whatever I do, I do it all for the Glory of God”, and boom! PEACE. This blanket of peace and comfort just wrapped me up and my worries were gone. I finished my prayers and then I read the bible.

The bow that laced everything up that early morning was John 16:33 (AMP Version). It goes on to say, “I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confdent, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory is abiding.]”

This is Jasmine, Signing Off ❤

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Battle of the Mind

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I lie awake in the dusty couch I am laying. The soft green blanket wraps me as my toes tries to find cover. Nights like this are the ones I find exhausting. Thoughts engulf my mind, as I hopped into one memory at a time. Examining tangled laces, untying knots, and connecting dots on what I could have done differently. I wrap my brain around the “what-happened” and think about my latest profound solution on what I could have done best.

To be quite honest, there is not a specific moment I am actually pondering. My mind just feels like a pen on a blank paper, scribbling something until those lines begins to form like an object and then it hovers over it and I am taken to a memory. Once the memory burns out, the pen starts scribbling again on a blank sheet of paper.

Good and bad things are played like a movie. Looking at a specific memory from a different perspective. However, I cannot help but to let my imagination take over. It dances like a stranger as it tries to capture a silhouette of my dress, as I swing away with my memory. It tugs on the jewelry hanging below my neck, “notice me!”, it demanded.

“Imagine this!”, it whispered as I am dancing with my memory. I catch a glimpse of the new possibilities it could offer. Doors being flung wide open, dusty books burned, trees chopped for new pages, tempting to whisk me away into its cheap thrills and climable hills.

My memories are real and concrete. They are the ones I know happened giving me a sense of clarity. On the other hand, my imagination tries to bring cloudiness into those clear skies. It has this clever way of taking my heart into new dimensions, as my feet dips into their fluffy fantasies.

I shake them out as I focus on who and what is in front of me. I intently study reality and consciously examine him. The soft eyes of my memory, its smile oh those gaps… those memory gaps, its thumb caressing my backbone, and its gentle hold. My mind captured by this moment, as it soaks in the beautiful reality that is holding me as I dance with reality.

My mind: a combination of memory, reality, and fantasies. Only God knows which take up the most headspace..

Precious Present

There are days when I feel happy and I just do not want it to end. Days when I could just savor this moment for it to last forever. These days are just like today, yesterday, and since Christmas Day. My special one has brought color and joy into my life and it is just right to savor it for however long I want to, wherever and whenever. These are moments when I want to remember when I am down in the future, just in case, to give me a little pick me up, to tell me to not give up because these days are up ahead.

As you can tell by now, I am happy. Plain and simple. Yep, that’s right. Not the elaborate “overjoyed” kind of way but the good ole’ “joy”, and yep you guessed it right. It is because of this one person. I used to think happiness depending on a person is ridiculous and do not get be wrong, it still is sometimes, however, that person also has the ability to add color into your life. Love, people may say… infatuation to the others, who wants to tone it down a little bit. However, the important part of it is happiness.

Since we are now talking about importance, I think it is just write to talk about its root. Why am I happy? Who is responsible for this burst of emotion? Is it really just this one guy? Or is it this man watching over us, making sure the guy I am happy with and about are experiencing joy instead of just plain happiness. See, I believe “joy” is a little bit deeper than smiles, laughter, euphoria, etc. I believe it comes from within and not only that, I believe it is given.

You may ask, “given… by who?” In my own spiritual understanding, I am absolutely positive it is granted by our Lord Jesus Christ. In Psalms 16:11 it is written, “You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.” This is the root of my joy, Jesus Christ. He is the reason why I sing His praise & worship when I am taking a shower, doing my makeup, doing my chores at work. He loves me deeply and he expresses it to me through this joy.

All I can say is thank you Jesus Christ. Before this year ends, I encourage you to reflect on what He has done in your life, how much he loves you, how he died and rose again to save you from your sins, and who He is in your everyday life. He is always there for you and for me, it is just a matter of us constantly reminding ourselves to not worry because He has gifted us joy, so we must live and act upon this precious present He has given.

The Look

Once I caught your stare

Your look from the distance

I caught it and you looked away

So I took the dare

As I stared back for a few moments

“Nobody has looked at me that way”,

My heart whispered

“Maybe he was just bored and tired”

My mind deciphered

However the look in your eyes

It was beautiful and rare

Read it from across the miles

Was that your heart bare?

Or was it all made up by my mind?

Find Your Voice in Silence

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How do you talk to someone, when you cannot even find your own voice? You want to be heard, but you are unable to make out a single word. Mind of yours is full of thoughts and ideas, but your mouth is silent. You feel that pull from your mind “that control” to step back from verbal expression, and you wonder whether you are just engineered to be a thinker and writer… nothing more.

You speak and your words sound forced and rehearsed. Words are your friend, only if it is read, heard, or written, but once it is spoken, it becomes a stranger: a stranger with no intentions of identifying your verbal competency. Talking to you is only used for simple responses such as: Good, I’m Fine, How About You, and Thank You. Even a simple “hello” is difficult to enunciate.

A smile is the best you can do. It eliminates the dilemma of topics to talk about, the measure of its interest level, expectation of feedbacks, and ultimately the risk of being judged by word choices, expressions, and opinions. Silence literally saves you. It saves you from your careless mouth, the listening ears, and the factory of accompanying adversities.

This is jblogger, signing off ❤

You Can Do Anything: Just Believe

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“You Can Do Anything You Set Your Mind to Do” This is a saying I believe is true. You will make time for it, especially when you start rejecting any excuse. When you have the enough faith and motivation, you can do anything. The impossible begins to be accomplished, and you will see changes in your life.

At first, it may seem difficult because it is just the beginning. However, when you have warmed up to life’s demands and pace, you are able to finish the race. We all have tasks waiting to be touched, we all have those visible and invisible piles of things to do, and it may seem impossible to complete them… however, if you just believe that you are going to finish where you left off, you will.

You will persevere through the rough times, and finish what you started. We all have experienced life’s overwhelming desires, and when we give up it is not ‘life’ we are giving up on, nor its challenges… we are simply giving up on ourselves, on our God-given abilities to succeed.

God will never give you anything you cannot handle. You are more than equipped to fight the challenges life throws at you. You have a God who is bigger than anything and anyone in this world and He is with you, always. So the next time you feel like life has knocked you over, remember it has not. It feels like it, but you are still standing so do not give up, because the end is closer than you think.

This is jasminedelacerna, signing off ❤